I can't be with myself

For someone who values 'me' time so much

It sucks when I have to take a break from me

It’s so weird when you have to run from yourself.

When your thoughts are too much

to deal with, to associate with

But my thoughts merge with my feelings and I can't tell them apart

I pray one day that they would be fleeting.

I should not pay attention to them and then maybe they will have no power.

So I'll spend my time doing everything that can keep me from myself 

That can keep me grounded in reality

But the night always comes, I have to be home to the one person I don't want to deal with,

And then what do I do?

I drown myself in the music, movies, conversations 

Until sleep finally beckons. 

Then I pray that my dreams are silent

If they are not then please be pleasant.