Twenty!!!

Hello, My Bunnies,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Guess who turned 20 today?!!? ME!!!

I no longer fit in the teenager category but tbh nothing has changed much (at least not yet).

I pray that is is the year of greater discernment and wisdom.

I can't wait to see what 20 has in store for me. I am so grateful to God for his faithfulness all my life and I look forward to a closer relationship with him. I am not doing anything extravagant for the day (I want a chill 20) so I don't have much to tell you guys but here are pictures of me during my teen years. I have grown in so many ways and I am happy with the woman that God is moulding me into.

One thing I learnt from my teen years is that pain really does end and God has great plans awaiting us and his plans are always perfect.

Cheers to more years Bunnies.

How to spend Christmas SOLO!

Helloooooo from your Bunny,

Did you miss me??? MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

SO this year I am spending Christmas by myself, no friends or family around, unfortunately. But that is not gonna get me down, I am not allowing it. Life can throw lemons at you but you make a bomb Christmas experience out of it!!!

So the first thing you have to do is get any feeling of abandonment out of your heart, remember that you have GOD. It is not easy but fill your time with the things that keep you happy or busy. For me, I am sleeping, studying, going to the gym, having spontaneous dance parties.

The second thing you do is "Make a list" just like Santa. You need to make a list of the things you'll need to celebrate your Christmas and buy them before Christmas. So I made a food list and bought them early. There are two reasons for this, one, the shops are closed on Christmas day and boxing day and two, you don't want to be running around on Christmas day. If you like a stress-free life like me then you'll also do the cooking in advance. So I made my stew on Saturday and made my rice on Sunday. On Christmas day, I only need to fry plantain and make the appetisers which I'll just pop in the oven.

Three, "Treat yourself". Go for the Christmas service and enjoy it. If you want to dress up then dress up. Get yourself a little Christmas present, I had mine delivered and even told myself "Thank you. You shouldn't have". I also made myself a three-course meal (I'll include my menu below). So when people are snapping about their food and the fun they're having, I will not be left out (I'll probably be snapping the most😂).

Menu

Appetiser: Duck Spring rolls and Prawn rolls

Main: Coconut rice, Jollof rice, Stewed Chicken, Coleslaw and Plantain

Dessert: Crème brûlée

Drinks: Malt, Shloer, Water

(I know you're thinking this is a lot of food and it is but I'm not trying to finish it in one day)

Four, "Message/ Call your family". If they are aware that you are alone for the holidays then they'd be worried about you. So call them so they know you're ok and to also celebrate with them.

Facetime your friends if you can. You guys can even eat together as you talk (if you want to).

PLAY MUSIC and DANCE

HAVE FUN!!!!!

Love Aunty Bunny who is partying solo xxx.

I have a short story out on Wattpad, here is the link: https://www.wattpad.com/490942967-support-when-we-were-kids

I can't be with myself

For someone who values 'me' time so much

It sucks when I have to take a break from me

It’s so weird when you have to run from yourself.

When your thoughts are too much

to deal with, to associate with

But my thoughts merge with my feelings and I can't tell them apart

I pray one day that they would be fleeting.

I should not pay attention to them and then maybe they will have no power.

So I'll spend my time doing everything that can keep me from myself 

That can keep me grounded in reality

But the night always comes, I have to be home to the one person I don't want to deal with,

And then what do I do?

I drown myself in the music, movies, conversations 

Until sleep finally beckons. 

Then I pray that my dreams are silent

If they are not then please be pleasant. 

Update 2

Hello from your Chubby Bunny,

I have not been feeling too well for some time now so it has been hard coming up with something to blog about this week. Seeing as I promised to be consistent I still wanted to put up something for you guys.

Rest. In all that we do let us not forget to take some time to rest. Do that which calms you down and de-stresses you. For a while, I've neglected the things that calm me and give me joy and this is because I have spent time working and worrying.

I forgot that even God himself rested after creating the world, he told us not to worry about things but to pray and cast those worries unto him. So for the longest time, I felt like I was carrying the world on my shoulders. Being in my final year had me thinking about my future and worrying that I was not doing the right things or living in my purpose. I was so focused on the future that I forgot about the 'now', I was not enjoying time with my friends or myself or enjoying the university experience. I started hiding and avoiding things that made me confront the world.

God had been calling out to me, asking that I see that he is with me and that I do not have to go through this year and life by myself but the voice of worry was so loud. My raging thoughts of insecurity and inadequacy were not allowing me to hear God and I couldn't pray. That made me feel so guilty and I found myself in a vicious circle that made me pull away from God even more.

By the grace of God, things are much better now. We had a Spirit-filled session with my youth fellowship and chains were broken. My friend was praying for me and I broke down (BTW I haven't been able to shed a tear for weeks despite feeling so empty and in need of a good cry). I finally let myself be still and let God's voice through and he gave me the assurance that I will be fine. I have felt such great peace since then.

We tell ourselves so often that God loves us and that he has got us but life can latch itself onto our backs and create doubts. One way to get through this is to surround yourself with the things that reaffirm and reassure you of God's love i.e. God's word, positive people, nature etc. I also made an active effort to go out of my house so I was not isolated, the days I just felt like avoiding my responsibilities and people I would ask (what is the blessing that the devil is trying so hard to take away from me?). If are going through something like this, you are not alone and things will get better. Just speak to God and find a confidant who you can talk to.

Anyhoo, I pray you all have a great weekend. I have a birthday to attend this weekend and I hope that comes with lots of bomb pictures.

Love Aunty Bunny xxx.

10 things you probably don't know about me

Hello from your Chubby Bunny,

This is a get to know me post. Before I begin to tell you more about myself, I'd like you guys to know that updates would start coming in bi-weekly. This is to allow me to alternate between the blog and my book on Wattpad. YES, I AM WRITING A BOOK. I might even write a stand-alone short story on there soon. So please follow me on Twitter so you are kept updated about everything and subscribe here so that you get notifications when I update.

On to getting to know me better.

So for the general stuff, I am 19 and my birthday is on the 21st of January. I am the youngest of two, I have an older brother and I am from Nigeria.

Where am I from?: Although I have mentioned that I am from Nigeria, in Nigeria, I am from a tribe in Southern Kaduna. My tribe is Attakar and we have our own language, traditional head and customs. So, no, I am not Hausa.

Talents: My talents include singing, acting and writing. I don't utilise them as much as I should but I am challenging myself. I have always been apart of school plays, I am apart of the worship team in my youth fellowship and I am writing a book on Wattpad (Yey!!!). I also have a wonderful ability to sleep at any time, anywhere and through anything.

Favourite food: I love Nigerian street food. I am totally obsessed, Nigerian street food isn't bite-sized, the portions are made to fill you up and that's probably another reason why I love it. It has everything from savoury to sweet things so your cravings are always met.

Type of music: I cannot choose a specific genre because my family and I are music geeks. I love Gospel, Reggae, Afrobeats (of course) from Fela to Wizkid. I love Beyonce, Celine Dion, Whitney Houston, Adele, Emily Sande, Yanni and so many others. If a song has mad beats or wonderful lyrics or both then it is for me.

Phobia: I am scared of Cockroaches, I cannot be in the same room as one. In fact, when I see cockroaches in my room I move to another room and sleep there. I also have a little apprehension of heights so I don't do roller-coasters but I love flying (contradictory I know).

Hobbies (spare time activities): I love reading and listing to music. I also love taking photographs when I am free and can take out my camera. Another hobby/talent of mine is procrastinating; I use one job to procrastinate another (eg. cleaning my room instead of writing my essay). If I really want to procrastinate then I just sleep and I know procrastination is bad so I am trying to work on it.

Favourite outfit: Even though I am a cool kid and I know how to dress my fine body. My favourite outfits are my PJs. I just love staying in my PJs. During the summer holidays (or most day TBH) when I have no plans, I just change from PJs to PJs. I wake up, shower and just slip on new PJs (my mum hates it but she's just happy that I am not sleeping the day away). I am very anti-social and tend to keep to myself so I love to be comfortable in my own space. If I had my way, I'd have more PJs than regular clothes but I have to attend classes and leave my house sometimes.

Favourite Memory: This would have to be summer trips and road trips my family and I took. It was very nice when we'd be together, shopping and sight-seeing. I love travelling and it was so nice doing it with my family.

Countries I have been to: I have been to Nigeria, the UK, USA, Gambia, Cote d'Ivoire, Canada. I have transited through Germany and Senegal. I 'd love to add more countries to this list.

Relationship Status: I am a single pringle. That is all I have to say about this question🤣

I hope you guys enjoyed this post. I'll see you in 2 weeks.

Love Aunty Bunny xxx.